Sunday, December 25, 2016

Why Rock Bottom is a Blessing!

Are you at, or have you ever been at #RockBottom and feel/felt that it is/was the end of the world? Well, simply put, don't!

Rock Bottom is the best and most solid foundation to build back up upon and believe me when I tell you that rock bottom is a true blessing that you will look back on and see as one of the best places you could have ever been! When you are at rock bottom, here are just a few of the awesome realizations you may have when you see it as the blessing it is; a.) you have absolutely nothing to lose and everything to gain because you have lost it all already! b.) the fake friends you have lost and the family members that turn you away are being cleaned out of your life on purpose as they do not deserve to be in your presence when you are on top again. c.) you worry less because the worry that you would lose things has passed because you have either lost them already or they are being cleaned out of your life as well and as a result you sleep better when you realize those things did not really matter that much anyway. d.) You are less discombobulated because life slows when you have less to do and less to do things with, but all of this is a real blessing you should be thankful for!

You can either keep doing the same things over and over again getting the same results or you can flow with the changes that come. You can even be the change you seek to be and you do this is very small steps that may at first seem meaningless however they are very big, as you will soon see! Embrace the changes in your life, good and bad and see them for what they really are be working your best to let go of the emotions attached to loss. I know this can be hard but it does get easier!

Sure, a lot of people who have made it already tel you to never give up however I will not song and dance you like that as my reasoning seems, at least to me, LOL, to be far more realistic! I suggest that you never give up on your dreams and that you dream as big and as hard as you can, as often as you can, because what do you have to lose? Look at it like this... You are where you are right now right? You often, likely just like me, think bad things and run negative what if scenarios in your mind, well then, you can change that negative expression of energy into a positive expression of energy by changing your thoughts, one at a time! When you think a fear based or negative thought, stop yourself, forgive yourself, and choose to think a thought of your wildest dream manifesting into your physical reality!

You, and every other man, woman and child on the face of this planet can and do create out of thin air every single day! We normally do this sub-consciously or by default thought patterns that are habitual and often negative! You are a creative being, with the ability to create whatsoever you desire and you have created your life today as it is now! By accepting that you created the life you now have you can then see that you can change it as it did not "happen to you" it happened because of you! We are not victims even if the reality we have come to believe in strongly suggests that we are. Your mission here, if you choose to accept it, is to become a conscious creator and to create your desires without limitation!

There is a lot more to be said but I will not bore you... See my other blog at;

Thursday, October 27, 2016

For Everyone who is Struggling Read and Relax

I am no longer embarrassed to admit that I have been down for a long time! My kind of rock bottom has, at times, drained me dry of any energy at all and I have repeatedly stated that I hate this life as I have been living it! As a conscious creator having created out of thin air the desires of my heart hundreds of times I "know" that when I make a decision as to what I truly desire, then stand on that in faith calling it forth until it manifests, never giving up, that I will experience its manifestation!

Over the last 41 months I have been calling forth into my physical reality (9) primary choices, the likes of which I have never called forth ever before as they are foundational by design. I have chosen to throw myself a Hail Merry of sorts and to refuse to settle, calling forth my true hearts desires as I have everything to gain and nothing to lose. The simple fact is I know that I can have, do, be and experience whatsoever I choose I just have to stay the course and keep the faith until the manifestation takes place.

In my frustrations for the time it has taken so far, not just the 41 months of prayer, but really 16 years of a rotten shit of an existence I would not wish on anyone, I began questioning, for real, why is my life so fucked up and terrible? I mean, really, nothing goes my way, ever! Are you kidding me GOD and the Universe?

As most of my realizations come from within, as I had vented my frustrations in prayer over and over, it came to me that my darkest times are actually my greatest blessings so let me explain that a little...

For me complacency is my worst enemy! If I have, just enough, or if I am, making ends meet and having a little fun, my motivation to seek real change in my life is great diminished!

For me, it is an absolute necessity for me to be down, at rock bottom, because otherwise I am not as motivated to create change in my life and as a result I will not intentionally seek to create the change my heart desires! In this my state of being at rock bottom and having nothing go my way is actually the greatest blessing!

I have known for some time now that once my choices manifest this time, my past troubles, sorrows and hard times will instantly become badges of honor that I will wear proudly!

Now, as clear as a beautiful Spring day, I see that what I hate the most in this life when I am down at rock bottom, at least for me, is the absolute cause of my new creations being determined, visualizes and then called forth by me into this physical realm. Out of the darkness of despair rises the phoenix out of the ashes!

It is really a matter of your own individual perspective as we all have the ability to "choose" how we see things in our lives as well as in the world around us as a whole!

Its like "my glass is half empty" or "my glass is half full" verses "I have a glass with something in it" and "I can add whatever I want to the glass anytime" and for everyone this realization may be uniquely different!

What seems logical to me though is that "OUR MOST DIFFICULT TIMES ARE THE FERTILE SOIL WHERE WE PLANT DESIRES LIKE SEEDS, WATERED BY FAITH" and when we believe we will see a harvest!

If you are reading this you are likely searching for something inspirational and I encourage you to consider that what you are now going through, is perfectly as it should be, especially if it is motivating you to seek change and to create a new reality for yourself!

Before I close... I know without any doubt whatsoever that we all, yes you too, can have whatsoever you desire and that once you make it known to God, the Universe or whomever, things begin to happen to make your desires manifest! Some things can happen instantly, some things takes days, weeks or even months and some thing may take years to manifest however going for it puts you in a position where you have everything to gain and nothing to lose by putting forth a sincere effort! You owe it to yourself to go for your dreams and even if you see no way for them to happen, a way can and will be made once you believe it can!

Suggestions for more inspiration; Conversations with GOD by Neale Donald Walsch Books 1, 2 and 3 especially, works by Dr. Wayne Dyer, Ekhart Tolle, James Redding, Gary Zukav, the movies The Secret and What the Bleep do we know and so many others not mentioned herein that you will find on your search. Take from them what you feel to be fore you and bless and release the rest! I pray day and night in complete agreement with every man, woman and child on the face of this planet and I thank you for your prayers in agreement with me!

Friday, August 12, 2016

The positives behind the pain!

Yesterday afternoon I had the most awesome time with someone I really enjoy being around. A comment at the end of their visit to my home led me to a bad dream shortly after I went to sleep. I woke up and internally analyzed my "Feelings" because being true to myself I felt both pain and pleasure in these feelings that derived from my bad dream. Searching from within it seems that as you grow spiritually in your wisdom you realize that the polar opposites of #Pain and #Pleasure are often true at the same time instead of being at different ends of a sliding scale!

There are literally thousands of quotes and explanations by Guru's and Master's who arrived at the same conclusion throughout time. Today as I took a drive into the country to pray and meditate I pondered this reality of mine further, the reality where I seemingly enjoy the pain, so much so that I prolong it instead of seeking to stop it. Now this is not always true, certain types of pain are never enjoyable on a conscious level but lets take a look at the Soul level for a few minutes...

I believe that we all originated from the Source (call it whatsoever you choose as humanity has given it many names) and when we are in and with this Source we are in a state of pure joy. We know conceptually that pain exists and what it is but we have no clue as to how it feels. We must, as GOD says in Conversations with GOD book 1 by Neale Donald Walsch "call upon the darkness" where we leave the light of the Source for the darkness of a physical reality here on Earth (or somewhere else) so we can #Experience those things we know conceptually but not in actuality. In this we also evolve...

No one really knows anything much at ll, we make assumptions and gravitate towards what we each believe to be true, usually settling with what resonates with our being.

Sometimes, when in a place of experiencing something that sucks, is painful or that I simply do not like from an external point of view, I laugh to myself because somehow I realize and connect with the deeper part of myself that knows this is all just fun and games. It is up to me as to how seriously I take life and all of these experiences!

The positives behind the pain become obvious once your inner wisdom kicks in and you begin to see it for what it really is, a delicious experience that we can only have in a state of physical reality. This realization makes it easier to endure the pain while we seek out our more natural state of pleasure. To realize this is an awesome experience indeed! I could elaborate but the rest I will keep to myself for now... ;-)

Friday, June 12, 2015

I am a Creator, that is what I do!

I love the "Notes from the Universe" that Mike Dooley posts on Facebook and I woke up this morning and seen this one;

Recently I have embraced, as fully as I can, the fact that I am a "CREATOR" with the ability to choose what I create! Honestly I am torn between the fact that sometimes I have amazing results for myself and sometimes I have no results at all! Personally I have found astrology and the Tarot to be a waste of time since I am actively participating in the conscious creation of my reality and the daily manipulation of the energy of this life to create what I desire. I have had great success and I am thankful in advance for the even greater successes I will have.

One of the hardest challenges we all face is "Never Giving Up" when things seem like they are not moving or working out for us! There is inspiration everywhere, all you have to do is look! From Facebook posts like those shared by Mike Dooley of the movie "The Secret" to YouTube videos on motivation, inspiration and self empowerment. One of my favorite YouTube Channels is YouAreCreators and here is a link;

If you look through the blog archives of this blog I created to express myself outwardly to the world you will see an honest roller coaster of emotions and focus! I am a "Creator" and I do have an impact on my physical reality! I spend time in prayer, usually multiple times daily, and I meditate when I do not feel like praying or I have prayed enough. The Universe sometimes responds instantly which leaves me awe-struck and other times silence! I am developing my skills as a conscious creator and there is nothing unique about this ability as everyone can do it!!!

It does not cost you anything to embark on creating a life you know inside you deserve! Others have what you want and so can you! Thank you for visiting my blog! Have an incredible day and please say a "prayer in agreement" with me asking GOD and the Universe to manifest my desires as I do the same for every man, woman and child on this planet daily!

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Sometimes Life just sucks, a candid update on my journey!

I am rarely negative, which has not always been the case...

My prayers use to be more complaining than focusing on what I want and I am currently on my 5th prayer campaign which is partially why I started this blog in the first place. Now I rarely complain in prayer but this evening I had to let loose and tell GOD and the Universe exactly how I felt! As I get older I find myself being more candid with GOD and the Universe, bypassing the BS!

To be honest I have selectively shared information on this blog that has never been "intimately personal" with all the details and tonight I will change that. Why? Because there are most likely people out there just like me who may find this post inspiration and "REAL" and since I am not selling anything nor am I trying to tell people how to live you may enjoy this post and my archives!

I turned 45 years old today 4/28/15 and I woke up feeling really good! The day was absolutely beautiful and one of my best friends took me to lunch and then his wife cooked me dinner and a cake! WOW! They were awesome!

So why does life suck? Well I have been in a place for almost 2 years where I am unhappy, unsatisfied, unfulfilled and "existing" instead of living life! My prayer campaign calling forth 9 primary choices (see my archives within this blog) is 23.5 months old but the things I have called forth through prayer have not yet manifested. I have lost a lot and I do mean to tell you a lot! So much I would not dare to detail it all here but the loss sucks really bad!

I have come to see that what most see as contradictions is really easily explained in "half truths" that are explained in "The Kybalion" very clearly! I regularly pray for things and they never manifest, no matter how I pray or what techniques I use. This renders the "fact that prayer does not work" and that fact cannot be denied!

A complete seemingly contradiction is my experience that "Prayer does in fact work" as I have experienced my prayers manifesting hundreds of times! In this both "FACTS" are true at the exact same time, with the one being true depending upon one's reality at the moment!

More often than not "prayer does not work for me or within the time I need it to" rendering my state of existence a constance "emergency" where Time is not on my side most of the time!

I am torn because I, like you, have no clue as to what to do about how I feel! I vent in prayer "calling out GOD and the Universe" on the bullshit that others claim is true but for me is not (i.e. you can have whatsoever you desire, etc...) only to feel scared that I have messed myself up! In my last blog post, the one before this one, I talked about staying the course and that is what I always do!

What is more frustrating for me is that "I HAVE A 100% SUCCESS RATE" on all of my prayer campaigns where I make a list of what I want in my life and then pray on it until they all manifest and I have never failed! I have failed hundreds of times on other things though, simple to urgent to humble requests where I have no time and need it now! This is confusing and more frustrating than I can express in words!

I absolutely believe in prayer and I absolutely know prayer does not always work! Why is that? Some will answer that it was not GOD's will for me however I KNOW ABSOLUTELY that GOD has no will for me except for me to do whatever I desire! Religious dogmas and idiotic belief systems would paint GOD as this all knowing creator who manages millions of ant farms on every life sustaining planet in the Universe and I simply cannot grasp that! The genius GOD/Creator that created all I can conceive/comprehend (and that is not much) is too advanced for the behavior suggested by religious texts like the Bible!

My belief has worked many times and my belief has failed me many times! I would say I have a 65% failure rate and a 35% success rate and most of the failure is because I ran out of time and then had to move on because the need/want/desire was gone after certain things happened!

Some of the most true words ever said are "the battles are within" as that is what I am going through right now really in so many ways! Looking for answers outside myself is liking to drinking snake oil from a salesman who promises it cures every life problem!

I come to the realization that sometimes things are so fucked up and confusing and the disappointments so great that all I can do is life up the question "WHAT NOW?"

The answer is always the same and it comes from inside with a small soft voice usually saying "Never Give Up!"

Dreams do come true and while some things never manifest like we want, if we are dedicated to creating the life we want we have to maintain an inner focus and drive that refuses to take no for an answer and stay the course no matter what!

I will stand firm, work through the BS and stay the course! This is all I have and as my past proves all I have ever needed! As I close, thank you for reading my post and know that I believe that a sincere dedication to your desires, setting aside the worry about the hows or whens and focusing on the fact that others have what they want and so can we, will get you the results you seek!

Monday, April 13, 2015

Staying the course no matter what!

On my other blog (see link below) I wrote a post also titled "Staying the course no matter what" and in this blog post I will elaborate!

In that blog post and at the link below you can read my 9 primary choices that make up my current personal prayer campaign that I have now been dedicated to for over 23 months!

Here is my elaboration that is more of an "open expression" as to how I feel about staying the course...

First, one may ask me... "Why have you been praying for something for 23+ months" and my answer is simple; I have always manifested whatever I choose as long as I never stop calling it forth in prayer until it manifests!

Second, another question may be "How do you pray" and my answer is a little more detailed; I pray today unlike I have prayed in the past! Today I pray in faith that I can call forth whatever I desire into manifestation because I am a creator with the GOD given authority to do so. In the past I have prayed different ways but I have evolved from "asking" for things to "claiming" them as mine!

Third, many may wonder why I have prayed for 23+ months and have not manifested what I desire yet? The simple answer is "I DO NOT HAVE A CLUE" but the good news is not every thing I call forth in prayer takes a long time. Some things take seconds, minutes or hours and other things take days, weeks and months and some take years! I never know or understand why, but I am sure it is me, not something or someone else causing it! Prayer works and has always worked for me! I have manifested hundreds of things into my physical reality, some out of thin air with overwhelming odds against me, but not every choice or prayer manifests (thank GOD)!

Fourth, why blog about it? Well, at first I just wanted to express myself openly and although I still do I think that the historical archives of my posts will be significant when everything comes full circle and especially when my 9 primary choices manifest!

Fifth, why share the intimate details of what I choose and call forth in prayer when many will laugh at me, call me crazy and even curse me? Well I have thought about not doing so, then I thought that I would just "forgive everyone in advance" who hates on me because haters are going to hate, LOL! :-) I have this desire to share my thoughts openly... I started this blog when I did not have a place to put a vision board, as suggested in the movie "The Secret" as a good idea to manifest your desires through the law of attraction. I also believe some may be inspired by my blog posts and my blogs do get a good bit of traffic!

Finally, as anyone who reads my archived blog posts will see, I am a real guy on a journey, just as lost as others, creating my own path rather than following the paths of others! I am my own solution and if I want change I have to be it! Thank you for reading!

Saturday, October 4, 2014

Self Motivation

Here is a photo of my journal entry into my hand written journal on July 31, 2014 @ 12:47am. Below the photo is an explanation as to why this motivates me and what I believe to be the "point" that makes this blog post something interesting you may want to consider.

Today and over the last couple months I have been praying more diligently for the complete manifestation of my true hearts desires. It can be hard to motivate myself at times however I have been pushing myself through and at times forcing myself to pray. One of the things that helps me motivate myself is the events of the past that are almost magical. The image above shows a journal entry I made a little after midnight on July 31st 2014 and what took place later the same day is a huge motivational experience.

When I wrote the journal entry above there were three things going on; 1. I was awaiting for my personal credit to get better, 2. I was driving a rental car a friend of mind Tim had kindly rented for me but I did not think I would qualify for an auto loan because I was self employed and 3. I did not have a large down payment to ensure my ability to get into the vehicle of my choice. As you see from the journal entry above I made a simple request to GOD and the Universe and what I am going to share is the absolute truth...

When I got up July 31st 2014 I "HAD FORGOTTEN MY JORNAL ENTRY, WHICH IS USUALLY THE CASE" and I had received some bad news that some credit I was awaiting to be approved for had been delayed and in fact may not come at all. In a "fuck it" mindset and out of frustration I thought "what the hell" and I went online and applied for a new vehicle loan through a Ford Dealership. I told the Internet Sales Manager that I waned an F-150 Raptor fully loaded or an F-250 King Ranch 4x4 fully loaded and I only wanted to pay $1,000 down. Please note I had forgotten my journal entry and prayer request during this whole process.

An hour or so went by and I was called and told to come pick-up my new Ford Raptor! I went to dinner with my friend Tim and went by the dealership to pick-up the rental car that was in his name so it could be turned in the next day and I let Tim drive my new truck to his house while I drove the rental car to his house. It wasn't until I pulled the rental car into Tim's driveway that it all hit me like a ton of bricks that I had just prayed for and written in my journal a request to "AN EASY NEW VEHICLE LOAN THAT WILL ALLOW ME TO BUY A NEW VEHICLE OF MY CHOICE" and as you may imagine I was in complete shock!

The Universe and my father GOD had granted my request instantly in the same day! WOW! This does not always happen (i.e. I do not always get what I ask for the same day) but it does happen and it proves that it can happen!

I was unconsciously led to apply for the vehicle loan only to realize it was an immediate yes to my prayer request. The combination of my prayers on 7/30/14 and my journal entry that night after midnight led to the experience. While I can afford the vehicle and paid my first payment early, I did not think my credit was good enough and come to find out it was perfect!


I love my new truck which derived through prayer and it is this experience that motivates me to keep pushing forward and praying without failure for what I seek! We are all creators with the same ability to create whatever we desire out of thin air! Keep praying because this investment into yourself will eventually give you the harvest you deserve! Every prayer is a planted row of seeds that will produce a harvest as long as you de-weed the doubt, water with faith and believe in the sun!