I am a Creator, that is what I do!

I love the "Notes from the Universe" that Mike Dooley posts on Facebook and I woke up this morning and seen this one;

Recently I have embraced, as fully as I can, the fact that I am a "CREATOR" with the ability to choose what I create! Honestly I am torn between the fact that sometimes I have amazing results for myself and sometimes I have no results at all! Personally I have found astrology and the Tarot to be a waste of time since I am actively participating in the conscious creation of my reality and the daily manipulation of the energy of this life to create what I desire. I have had great success and I am thankful in advance for the even greater successes I will have.

One of the hardest challenges we all face is "Never Giving Up" when things seem like they are not moving or working out for us! There is inspiration everywhere, all you have to do is look! From Facebook posts like those shared by Mike Dooley of the movie "The Secret" to YouTube videos on motivation, inspiration and self empowerment. One of my favorite YouTube Channels is YouAreCreators and here is a link;

https://www.youtube.com/user/YouAreCreators

If you look through the blog archives of this blog I created to express myself outwardly to the world you will see an honest roller coaster of emotions and focus! I am a "Creator" and I do have an impact on my physical reality! I spend time in prayer, usually multiple times daily, and I meditate when I do not feel like praying or I have prayed enough. The Universe sometimes responds instantly which leaves me awe-struck and other times silence! I am developing my skills as a conscious creator and there is nothing unique about this ability as everyone can do it!!!

It does not cost you anything to embark on creating a life you know inside you deserve! Others have what you want and so can you! Thank you for visiting my blog! Have an incredible day and please say a "prayer in agreement" with me asking GOD and the Universe to manifest my desires as I do the same for every man, woman and child on this planet daily!

Sometimes Life just sucks, a candid update on my journey!

I am rarely negative, which has not always been the case...

My prayers use to be more complaining than focusing on what I want and I am currently on my 5th prayer campaign which is partially why I started this blog in the first place. Now I rarely complain in prayer but this evening I had to let loose and tell GOD and the Universe exactly how I felt! As I get older I find myself being more candid with GOD and the Universe, bypassing the BS!

To be honest I have selectively shared information on this blog that has never been "intimately personal" with all the details and tonight I will change that. Why? Because there are most likely people out there just like me who may find this post inspiration and "REAL" and since I am not selling anything nor am I trying to tell people how to live you may enjoy this post and my archives!

I turned 45 years old today 4/28/15 and I woke up feeling really good! The day was absolutely beautiful and one of my best friends took me to lunch and then his wife cooked me dinner and a cake! WOW! They were awesome!

So why does life suck? Well I have been in a place for almost 2 years where I am unhappy, unsatisfied, unfulfilled and "existing" instead of living life! My prayer campaign calling forth 9 primary choices (see my archives within this blog) is 23.5 months old but the things I have called forth through prayer have not yet manifested. I have lost a lot and I do mean to tell you a lot! So much I would not dare to detail it all here but the loss sucks really bad!

I have come to see that what most see as contradictions is really easily explained in "half truths" that are explained in "The Kybalion" very clearly! I regularly pray for things and they never manifest, no matter how I pray or what techniques I use. This renders the "fact that prayer does not work" and that fact cannot be denied!

A complete seemingly contradiction is my experience that "Prayer does in fact work" as I have experienced my prayers manifesting hundreds of times! In this both "FACTS" are true at the exact same time, with the one being true depending upon one's reality at the moment!

More often than not "prayer does not work for me or within the time I need it to" rendering my state of existence a constance "emergency" where Time is not on my side most of the time!

I am torn because I, like you, have no clue as to what to do about how I feel! I vent in prayer "calling out GOD and the Universe" on the bullshit that others claim is true but for me is not (i.e. you can have whatsoever you desire, etc...) only to feel scared that I have messed myself up! In my last blog post, the one before this one, I talked about staying the course and that is what I always do!

What is more frustrating for me is that "I HAVE A 100% SUCCESS RATE" on all of my prayer campaigns where I make a list of what I want in my life and then pray on it until they all manifest and I have never failed! I have failed hundreds of times on other things though, simple to urgent to humble requests where I have no time and need it now! This is confusing and more frustrating than I can express in words!

I absolutely believe in prayer and I absolutely know prayer does not always work! Why is that? Some will answer that it was not GOD's will for me however I KNOW ABSOLUTELY that GOD has no will for me except for me to do whatever I desire! Religious dogmas and idiotic belief systems would paint GOD as this all knowing creator who manages millions of ant farms on every life sustaining planet in the Universe and I simply cannot grasp that! The genius GOD/Creator that created all I can conceive/comprehend (and that is not much) is too advanced for the behavior suggested by religious texts like the Bible!

My belief has worked many times and my belief has failed me many times! I would say I have a 65% failure rate and a 35% success rate and most of the failure is because I ran out of time and then had to move on because the need/want/desire was gone after certain things happened!

Some of the most true words ever said are "the battles are within" as that is what I am going through right now really in so many ways! Looking for answers outside myself is liking to drinking snake oil from a salesman who promises it cures every life problem!

I come to the realization that sometimes things are so fucked up and confusing and the disappointments so great that all I can do is life up the question "WHAT NOW?"

The answer is always the same and it comes from inside with a small soft voice usually saying "Never Give Up!"

Dreams do come true and while some things never manifest like we want, if we are dedicated to creating the life we want we have to maintain an inner focus and drive that refuses to take no for an answer and stay the course no matter what!

I will stand firm, work through the BS and stay the course! This is all I have and as my past proves all I have ever needed! As I close, thank you for reading my post and know that I believe that a sincere dedication to your desires, setting aside the worry about the hows or whens and focusing on the fact that others have what they want and so can we, will get you the results you seek!

Staying the course no matter what!

On my other blog (see link below) I wrote a post also titled "Staying the course no matter what" and in this blog post I will elaborate!

https://thoughtsprojected.wordpress.com

In that blog post and at the link below you can read my 9 primary choices that make up my current personal prayer campaign that I have now been dedicated to for over 23 months!

https://thoughtsprojected.files.wordpress.com/2015/04/personalchoicesjohnnybryangiles.pdf

Here is my elaboration that is more of an "open expression" as to how I feel about staying the course...

First, one may ask me... "Why have you been praying for something for 23+ months" and my answer is simple; I have always manifested whatever I choose as long as I never stop calling it forth in prayer until it manifests!

Second, another question may be "How do you pray" and my answer is a little more detailed; I pray today unlike I have prayed in the past! Today I pray in faith that I can call forth whatever I desire into manifestation because I am a creator with the GOD given authority to do so. In the past I have prayed different ways but I have evolved from "asking" for things to "claiming" them as mine!

Third, many may wonder why I have prayed for 23+ months and have not manifested what I desire yet? The simple answer is "I DO NOT HAVE A CLUE" but the good news is not every thing I call forth in prayer takes a long time. Some things take seconds, minutes or hours and other things take days, weeks and months and some take years! I never know or understand why, but I am sure it is me, not something or someone else causing it! Prayer works and has always worked for me! I have manifested hundreds of things into my physical reality, some out of thin air with overwhelming odds against me, but not every choice or prayer manifests (thank GOD)!

Fourth, why blog about it? Well, at first I just wanted to express myself openly and although I still do I think that the historical archives of my posts will be significant when everything comes full circle and especially when my 9 primary choices manifest!

Fifth, why share the intimate details of what I choose and call forth in prayer when many will laugh at me, call me crazy and even curse me? Well I have thought about not doing so, then I thought that I would just "forgive everyone in advance" who hates on me because haters are going to hate, LOL! :-) I have this desire to share my thoughts openly... I started this blog when I did not have a place to put a vision board, as suggested in the movie "The Secret" as a good idea to manifest your desires through the law of attraction. I also believe some may be inspired by my blog posts and my blogs do get a good bit of traffic!

Finally, as anyone who reads my archived blog posts will see, I am a real guy on a journey, just as lost as others, creating my own path rather than following the paths of others! I am my own solution and if I want change I have to be it! Thank you for reading!

Self Motivation

Here is a photo of my journal entry into my hand written journal on July 31, 2014 @ 12:47am. Below the photo is an explanation as to why this motivates me and what I believe to be the "point" that makes this blog post something interesting you may want to consider.

Today and over the last couple months I have been praying more diligently for the complete manifestation of my true hearts desires. It can be hard to motivate myself at times however I have been pushing myself through and at times forcing myself to pray. One of the things that helps me motivate myself is the events of the past that are almost magical. The image above shows a journal entry I made a little after midnight on July 31st 2014 and what took place later the same day is a huge motivational experience.

When I wrote the journal entry above there were three things going on; 1. I was awaiting for my personal credit to get better, 2. I was driving a rental car a friend of mind Tim had kindly rented for me but I did not think I would qualify for an auto loan because I was self employed and 3. I did not have a large down payment to ensure my ability to get into the vehicle of my choice. As you see from the journal entry above I made a simple request to GOD and the Universe and what I am going to share is the absolute truth...

When I got up July 31st 2014 I "HAD FORGOTTEN MY JORNAL ENTRY, WHICH IS USUALLY THE CASE" and I had received some bad news that some credit I was awaiting to be approved for had been delayed and in fact may not come at all. In a "fuck it" mindset and out of frustration I thought "what the hell" and I went online and applied for a new vehicle loan through a Ford Dealership. I told the Internet Sales Manager that I waned an F-150 Raptor fully loaded or an F-250 King Ranch 4x4 fully loaded and I only wanted to pay $1,000 down. Please note I had forgotten my journal entry and prayer request during this whole process.

An hour or so went by and I was called and told to come pick-up my new Ford Raptor! I went to dinner with my friend Tim and went by the dealership to pick-up the rental car that was in his name so it could be turned in the next day and I let Tim drive my new truck to his house while I drove the rental car to his house. It wasn't until I pulled the rental car into Tim's driveway that it all hit me like a ton of bricks that I had just prayed for and written in my journal a request to "AN EASY NEW VEHICLE LOAN THAT WILL ALLOW ME TO BUY A NEW VEHICLE OF MY CHOICE" and as you may imagine I was in complete shock!

The Universe and my father GOD had granted my request instantly in the same day! WOW! This does not always happen (i.e. I do not always get what I ask for the same day) but it does happen and it proves that it can happen!

I was unconsciously led to apply for the vehicle loan only to realize it was an immediate yes to my prayer request. The combination of my prayers on 7/30/14 and my journal entry that night after midnight led to the experience. While I can afford the vehicle and paid my first payment early, I did not think my credit was good enough and come to find out it was perfect!

This is but one of hundreds of experiences I have had throughout my life that PROVES WITHOUT ANY DOUBT WHATSOEVER THAT WHAT YOU PRAY FOR AND CALL FORTH CAN MANIFEST AT ANYTIME AND SOMETIMES EVEN INSTANTLY!!! :-)

I love my new truck which derived through prayer and it is this experience that motivates me to keep pushing forward and praying without failure for what I seek! We are all creators with the same ability to create whatever we desire out of thin air! Keep praying because this investment into yourself will eventually give you the harvest you deserve! Every prayer is a planted row of seeds that will produce a harvest as long as you de-weed the doubt, water with faith and believe in the sun!

Three steps to manifestation!

It has been said many times before and in many different ways however the truth of it is still the same... Thoughts Become Things!

Allowing yourself to believe in your own magic is essential to your success in being a creator! You were created to create! You create your own reality even if you do not realize it! The three steps to manifestation, for me in my experience, is;
1. Have the thought of the thing I choose to have, be or experience...
2. Visualize this thought often and call it forth using prayer or meditation believing you can have it because it exists and it is yours already...
3. Allow it to manifest into your reality via the natural flow of energy by not trying to figure out the hows or whens. Simply let the Universe figure out the hows and whens and believe it will come...

You can open new doors every single day and you are the creator of your reality! Keep searching because anyone who asks receives, anyone who knocks the door is open and anyone who seeks will find! These words are not just words that are powerful truths spoken throughout man's history!

How to use the words "I AM" authentically to create the reality you choose!

Using the words "I AM" can have a very powerful impact in your life and in your ability to create out of thin air what so ever you choose! Saying the words "I AM" without believing in your heart they words are true can be a problem though. The video above outlines my personal belief that the words "I AM" are true for three different reasons;
1. My "I AM" statement is true because in the highest version of the highest vision and thoughts I have about what I desire the thing already exists and is rightfully mine so the words are true.
2. My "I AM" statement is true because the thing exists in the spiritual realm where I am calling it forth into the physical realm using my faith and visualization.
3. My "I AM" statement is true because the thing is my reality in the physical realm now having manifested through thoughts, prayers, etc...

Because of these 3 things my "I AM" statements are actually and authentically true!

I had an epiphany that, come to find out, the information is nothing new and is relative to hermetics!

I am not a guy who claims to know everything however when original information comes to me from inside or the Universe and is immediately substantiated by "outside information" that has been around since the beginning of thinking man I think this is awesome! I do believe, now as my own personal truth, that my soul can beseech another soul! Amazing!

See my other personal blog!

http://thoughtsprojected.wordpress.com